who I am.

Hello there,

My name is Katherine and I am 18 years old from Sydney.

I guess I should explain what I am doing here.

For the longest time, I can remember myself being self conscious. I remember looking down at my stomach in primary school and wondering why there was a bump. I remember being at a friend's house and they were squeezing their stomach and using it to make faces and that night I went home and did the same thing. I remember in year 8, where my addiction to food came about as my friend and I ran into the canteen always trying to be the first to get a small bowl of fried rice. Basically for as long as I remember, I have always been self conscious.

Now, even though for my life, I have never been the skinny one, I don't think I was classified as 'fat'. From my earliest days, I was playing sport, doing gymnastics and aerobics, and in year 9 I joined the gym. Now, you see, people called me fit and strong, and in actual fact, I probably was. In our 'fitness' tests at school, I achieved the maximum amount of curl ups in a curl up test, I was an active member of oztag and touch football teams and for 3 years I made it to zone cross country, even becoming school cross country champion in year 12. So you see, I've always been into fitness, but I'm still not comfortable with where I am.

The problem is food. I have recently come to accept that I have an emotional problem with it. Shit has gone down at home, especially within those years I was becoming accustomed to making my own choices of what to eat, and thus I began to rely on it. During my final year of year 12, I realised within all that HSC stress, I began stress eating. I would buy packets of chips or tim tams or chocolate bars and devour them while 'studying'.

Now, previously, I've had created instagram accounts (fitness_g0als) and bought a fitbit and a polar watch, all in the hope of keeping me motivated, and true, i've stuck to it for maybe 2 months, but never in a long term process.

THis time, im determined for it to be different. I've noticed alot of girls from my high school slimming down by making very drastic changes to their lifestyle. I don't want to do it that way. I want to show myself I can do it safely, and harmoniously while making real progress.

There is much more to this story of my motivation, that I'll get into another time. But this will be the start. Let me explain my url. You can substitute the x in fxt for and A or an I and create your own meaning. Right now I feel as if  I am the A. I hope I can make myself an I.

Let's help each other out.

Much love, Katherine